My Encounter with Rocco Siffredi…
You may have seen that I appeared on LustCast to talk about my experiences with Rocco Siffredi. I am very pleased that my friend Tommie, the host of LustCast, has started investigating Rocco's "work style".
Normally, I don't complain and usually try to solve problems independently. If Tommie had not delved into this situation, I might not have spoken about my encounter with Rocco Siffredi. I think it's important to speak up on this issue, as so many women have been traumatized.
Deep down, I have always wanted to make a difference in the porn industry because of how women are treated, especially beginners. And now, finally, the stars have aligned, and it’s time to share my experience of the abuse of power and exploitation of women in porn. Female empowerment is also a big part of my life. Now that I have a relatively significant following, I can use my voice for a cause that makes a difference, instead of promoting vitamin gummy bears or detox tea.
The timing is also in my favor because I am no longer dependent on this industry. Women often can't speak up when they are abused because of the consequences for their career. A perfect example is that Tommie interviewed one of Rocco Siffredi's victims, and right after it was released, she was told to retract the accusations related to Rocco.
Let me get straight to the point. My first shoot with Rocco happened when I was still a newcomer. It was maybe my third or fourth shoot. It all began with a call from my agent. She told me there would be a simple Rocco casting. I immediately objected. I didn't really know much about his work, but I had heard of him, and even my friends knew about him (especially my male friends). They all agreed that he was one of the biggest and most intimidating porn stars.
My agent assured me that I didn't have to have sex with Rocco. He would only ask questions. The shoot would be with someone I already knew and had worked with before. Easy peasy. I was relieved but still a little scared as I was about to meet one of the Earth's biggest porn stars at the beginning of my porn actress career.
When I arrived at Rocco's place and saw his trophy room, where the casting was supposed to take place, I immediately felt intimidated. It was full of Rocco's awards and trophies from past years.
This whole atmosphere and Rocco's charismatic presence created a massive gap in the hierarchy between the 23-year-old girl who had just started making movies and the fifty-plus porn star.
I was so relieved that I knew my partner, with whom I was supposed to have a sex scene. We started shooting. At first, it was just talking with Rocco. Then we started the sex scene with my partner. Rocco was holding a camera and began to "instruct" us with sentences like "baby anal, you have to do anal."
I immediately panicked. As a girl who was still in university but had already made adult movies, I felt like my career was over if I didn't follow Rocco's requests. I felt like I didn't have a choice but to continue my porn career, because who would employ someone in a white-collar job if they have pornographic content available on the internet? A white-collar job wasn't a choice anymore.
We have a saying in Hungary, "falling between two chairs under the table," which perfectly describes how I felt. These thoughts were swirling in my mind.
Starting porn at 23 doesn't count as a young age. Although it was still hard to say “no”, it was probably easier than if I were only 18. Maybe being older and more mature saved me from going over my limits.
I would later learn that agencies often send young girls to shoot their first scenes with Rocco where there is a big chance that Rocco will convince them to do anal because of the intimidating atmosphere. And because they just be focussed on trying to survive in that situation. Once they do anal, there is a higher probability that they will do it on another shoot too.
For agencies, it makes everything easier because by doing anal, there are twice as many shooting possibilities, and the agencies can earn more with the actresses.
As the scene with my partner continued, and I said NO many times to Rocco's constant instructions to do anal and deepthroat, I felt that my dream of becoming a porn star would never come true, and my career was over. And when I thought it couldn't get any worse, Rocco started to touch himself, and at one point, he put down the camera. . .
I was clear with my agent that I didn't want to have a sex scene with him, and she confirmed it wouldn't happen. I didn't even see Rocco's STD test! Before shooting, everyone needs to show their tests to each other. At least that's the right way. I didn't know what to do. I had already used up all my courage to say “no” to anal and deepthroat. My fear of losing two career paths simultaneously filled my thoughts. Well… Rocco joined in. Total abuse of power.
The threesome continued for a while. My partner, an experienced porn actor, was also intimidated by Rocco, the superstar. He didn't function properly where he should have, so Rocco told him he didn't want him and sent him away. We continued shooting, only the two of us.
When I told my agent what happened, she sounded surprised and shocked. Later, I learned that I should have received more money for a scene with two guys, but they didn't pay more. It’s interesting that my agent didn’t stand up for me and ask for more money either. It seemed routine.
I had some other bad experiences with Rocco later on. I had a shoot with him, and then I was diagnosed with some STDs. So I immediately called my agent to notify the actors I had previously shot with. I had only had shoots with two people, and one of them was Rocco. But my agent got upset and told me Rocco was fine. She was unwilling to notify Rocco. She claimed he was clean and dropped the topic. This irresponsible behavior stopped me from doing porn for a while.
Later, when I started again, someone got syphilis in Prague. The solution in Europe was to give everyone a preventive penicillin injection. It was my agent who recommended it because she didn't want to lose money and wanted porn shoots to continue.
In the US, the porn industry stops when someone has a serious STD like syphilis or HIV. The injection messed with my body in many ways. For half a year, I had to receive various treatments because of the after-effects.
After this, I only made a few more movies with the same agent and stopped working with her. I ended my porn career mainly because it wasn't as exciting as before, and I had already experienced everything I wanted to, so I was ready for a new chapter. But the mistreatment of women and the abuse of power also influenced my decision.
The more disadvantaged a woman is, the more she will be abused. The lack of language knowledge, experience and money can put them in the worst situations as nobody is protecting them, and they feel like they don't have a choice but to surrender blindly.
I am glad I talked about these problems on the podcast and on my blog. I hope these issues will be discussed more and happen less often. And I also hope more women will be brave enough to speak up. I know how difficult it is when your income and livelihood depend on it, but change can only happen if this matter is addressed.
Many people think that porn is an easy way to make money, but the dynamic of this industry is just like any other workplace. The main difference is that it's recorded and can be found forever on the internet. Power, abuse, manipulation, and politics are present in the porn industry, just like any other workplace. But in porn, sex is involved.
To be successful in porn, you need a variety of skills, including marketing, management, sales, and business. You always have to improve your appearance and your body. It's way more than just spreading your legs.
I wish for a stronger community in porn where we can support and protect each other.
Please, girls, if you have had bad experiences, speak up to make the porn industry a better place.
